Zeitgiest - Moving Forward

Man, some days I just want to scream and shout.

Seriously I am a bundle of mixed emotions and I really think a good rant and rave would help me at this point. So here it goes.

Is it my age ...50? Is it the times that surround me? Is it just the part of the planet that I inhabit?

I attended the Zeitgeist Moving Forward movie premier this weekend, check out the trailer on YouTube if you get a chancehttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QYLLFpNn4lM

The frustration and joy I felt leaving the theatre was very conflicting.

I was surprised by the amount of people that joined in on this premier, close to 200, remembering I watched this movie in Barrie, Ontario, Canada, very impressive for a relatively small community.

Why only 200 people? Why were we not lined up around the block.? Like I said, mixed emotions, happy that 200 people actual showed up but disappointed that the crowd was not lined up around the block.

What the fuck are we doing? What are we thinking? We are living in an age of awfulness and yet we don't even seem to be paying attention to it all. Are we lost in the day to day grind of life? Are we being amused just enough to suppress our outrage? Or am I just whining in a world that is doing great? I can't seem to get a grip on that last selection. We are not fine, seriously, look at yourself for starters. If you are not sitting in dis-ease then you have it close to you. If you are not sitting in poverty then you are sitting next to it. If you are not heaped in debt, then you are one of the very few in your circle. The family unit has been redefined to suit our stressed out needs. Occupations are changing so that few of us have the stability required to really enjoy living in comfort. The rich are getting richer and the poor are growing in numbers, middle class is disappearing. It no longer exists in most of the ''civilized'' world, it has long been gone in great nations like China and India, the continent of Africa is overwhelmed with poverty and dis-ease, and if you open you eyes you will notice it is disappearing in the west as well. The American Empire is coming to an end and we in the west are feeling it as our banks and ''blue chip' businesses faltering and fall apart. Sounds scary right? But so required to move us all forward. Come on, we need change, we need an ''event'' that will unite the planet.

I urge you to check out the latest Zeitgeist Movie and please view it with an open mind. I am old enough to know this and my older friends have been onto it for years. The system is flawed and has been for a very long time. It's not just the west, its every where. the far east, the middle east, western and eastern Europe, and the last frontier are all messed up.

There is something wrong with the way we are all living or how we are all being forced to live and this movement is a fresh look at how to make things better for all involved, including mother earth.

MONDAY, AUGUST 16, 2010

Dad passed away

My father passed away recently.

It was unexpected, I would like to say it was a surprise but that seems to indicate an element of excitement and that was just not so. He was 79, was in the hospital of knee replacement surgery, a routine procedure and it all turned sour, complications arose and spun out of control and after dealing with a few weeks of confusion my Dad passed.

We lived a great distant apart and under the circumstance which contained that element of surprise? I was unable to get to him before he passed on.

I was, however, able to talk with him hours before he left us and looking back I believe we both realized something was different and that maybe it would be the last time we would be speaking. We chatted about his condition and predicament and he seemed to be himself. A little grumpy from all the mishaps that were occurring in his life at the hospital but having a sense of humour about it all. He expressed how he just wanted to go home. Did he mean home to my mother, or home to the other side. I'm not quite sure what the answer would be to that question.

My Dad lived a full life, really full. Spending his early life with his folks and 2 brothers living through the tough and rough times of the 30's and 40's. Finding and falling for my mother as a very young man. Most of his life's energy went into raising 6 kids of his own, finding and maintaining a fulfilling career to feed and entertain us all, and being a big part of the lives of 14 grand children. My Dad must have loved being with family, I know he loved being around people and the activity which included them. He loved laughter and provided the world we live in with lots of it. He was never really one for accumulating things. He was about family and the experience which came with them.

Since his passing, I think of my Dad often. I don't really miss him in the way you miss something, he just has a way of creeping into my thoughts, often. I wonder what he was thinking while he was living the last few hours of his life? What were those last minutes like? Was he happy with the way things turned out? Was he even aware that he was passing? I have so many questions for him and I am beginning to question my own mortality as well. I wish to believe that he would have loved what he accomplished in this life. He was a humble man who made simple demands on life. He was one of the good guys.

Life is not about the things you have or what you own. The external life slips away from you in those last minutes before you pass, I'm sure of this. Do you think that as that happens we are blessed with knowing that what we may have been searching for was right there inside us, and it was there all along? That in the very end we see and know ourselves for who we really are?

I will believe that my Dad passed with a smile, a smile within his heart.

I will believe he passed with a knowing.

SUNDAY, JULY 25, 2010

i hear you heart cry from the pain

it hurts to do this all again

my love for you was never right

always too dark in need of light

i'm trying but its getting late

why is it your heart so full of hate

it's time to wake its time to know

i am the one don't let me go

i hear you heart cry from the pain

it hurts to do this all again

my answer is to hold on tight

something telling me we'll be alright

if you must go my heart will break

our love will shatter within it's quake

babe hold me tight and love me so

look in your heart and you will know

i hear your heart cry from the pain

it hurts to do this all again

its time to heal the hurt inside

no longer wanting you to hide

tomorrow shares with us the new

my love for you was always true

my heart cries from the pain

it hurts to do this all again

SATURDAY, JULY 24, 2010

holly knight and mike chapman were so right on when they wrote the words ''love is a battlefield''.

anyone that has loved or been loved knows this all too well.

we wander from battle to battle looking for serenity, finding it briefly but eventually the battle begins (this, i believe, is when ego enters the relationship).

we lose sight, the calmness that we are searching for can not be found in our lover, partner, friend, but only found within. when we figure this out the battle ceases to exist.

SATURDAY, JUNE 26, 2010

Learn to trust yourself.

When did we stop trusting ourselves? We were born, miracles of good, pure and true. We were given the gift of intuition. it was placed in us and it remains with us for ever. From life to life we carry this with us, it is necessary for survival.

From the beginning we are told that we are good and that we are bad, all based on the perception of others and this judgement impedes are natural ability to believe in ourselves. We begin to walk a path of imitation in a circle of wrong doing. The more we are told of our inadequacies the more we believe them and the more we believe them the more we rely on the perception of others. We develop a fear of ourselves of our own feelings, we question our being, essentially burying our true ''feelings''. We distrust our intuition and we spend our lives running from our feelings. Keeping so busy and chasing anything that moves is our way of avoiding looking and finding those feelings.

We must learn to trust ourselves again.

When we realize that we are good and pure life becomes clearer, simplicity sets in. We become calmer and more balanced and we understand that happiness is within us.

Trust yourself, you're so worth it!

SUNDAY, MAY 30, 2010

The Energy Vampire

Tell me if you are tired of having individuals in our life that only seem to take from you?Nothing ever seeming to come back from them?

I call them Energy Vampires and I can tell you they are all around you. They are every where. It almost feels as if they plug right into you, draining you of all your energy, and the minute you have nothing left to offer they unplug and they are on their way. Their departure is usually accompanied with lots of anger, resentment, and blame. The Energy Vampire for some reason feels compelled to make a lot of noise as they unplug. Is this a distraction technique? Used to keep you off balance? Maybe?

Once you have identified an Energy Vampire it becomes so much easier to identify the next one. They are usually filled with dis-ease. They have a tendency to stress that life has somehow victimized them. The Energy Vampire is a taker in the relationship. They create nothing. They take from you emotionally and physically. They steal from both worlds.

They ask so much of you. They require assistance in almost all activities. They contribute little! They are narcissistic in nature and like I said earlier, the minute you have nothing left to offer as far as fresh ideas, good feelings, and positive thoughts, they unplug and want nothing to do with you. The ending of the relationship is usually blamed on you, and you are left wondering ''what the heck happened'' all the while feeling completely drained.

Look out for them, keeping your eye's wide open and your chakras wide shut. Do not be afraid to disassociate from these individuals. If you are able, do your best to educate them by illuminating their behavior. I believe many of them are unaware that they even exist. Be sure to save yourself at all costs. If you have a friendship in question, one that you continually review, this may be the problem.

Save yourself a whole lot of time and energy by unplugging these individuals and allowing them their chance to squirm out of your life.

Save yourself!

SUNDAY, MARCH 28, 2010

birthday??

On the eve of my 49th birthday, I sit in bed, pondering.

My day of creation is to be celebrated. The day I chose to arrive. What is its significance?

I also chose this vessel, this time, this place, this everything.

Why?

As I said ''I sit in bed, pondering''